here we go again

I felt in the last 5 days, that this weblog reflected my actual life situation

– > a mess < -

but, as i have realized lately,
it is often by getting lost that we come to discover new things.

So the last 3 days have been frustrating times for me, considering that i had to upgrade and reinstall this blog software over and over. Now it works, as it did yesterday before it crashed down again. But i am perseverant and positive that NOW IT WILL WORK!

So yeah, today was, is, my birthday. Yesterday evening, at 12h, my cat lilo jumped on my working table like to say 'happy birthday m ceeeeeeee!' but hey, i am in central europe time, this means, my birthday was in fact this morning at 9h11 - and lilo was there again

I spent a wonderful day, working on my projects (which by the way doesnt sound so much like work and i feel so blessed about that), and then headed outside for a latte machiato (i drink way to much of these, but the soft toping foam - especially when its made out of soya milk - delight me every time) at one of my favorite place, took a sun bath reading the 5 new books i have received this morning from amazon (coincidence that they got delivered this morning! its like xmas everytime!), did some shopping, and went back home to... hm, well, yeah, fix my weblog.

I also feel a bit better since yesterday, would it be that finaly, the planets have made up their mind and will give me a break for some time? i think so, and i even think they will be helping me a lot in the next months, which will be greatly appreciated. Anyway, i will be up tomorrow mornin to check out this solar eclipse at 6h30 am here, will try to take some pictures. For some of you who might not know, this month got 2 eclipses in my sign - a lunar and a solar one. "eclipses are catalysts for change and the harbingers of transformation. Eclipses create change by disrupting the normal electromagnetic pattern of the Sun-Moon field and our own electromagnetic fields", this explain a lot about my and many other people's life situation. Just go with the flow is what to keep in mind.

--> i dont know if i am doing the right thing, but i am doing my best

This day was wonderful, and something inside tells me that if i am able to let things go, and continue doing my best and following my feelings, things will even get better.

yyyyyiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiipiiiie!

After hours of efforts (and lots of will) i have restored this weblog.

Lesson 1:
If your boyfriend offer you to set up your weblog, it is nice, but hey, to learn to do it by yourself is even better

So now i have made a huge mess with all my movabletype settings, mixed up everything, uploaded-downloaded-and uploaded again, burned a pizza that ive forgot in the oven, but i finally made it, and will be able to manage it on my own… (yes, ok, i got some help, but most of it was by myself…)

I must write here how much i have MISSED to write on this weblog, how i have realized how it is now more than for fun but anything else than a NEED to share my thoughts… and to have you guys reading and answering and sharing your magical minds.

I am so happy to be back!!! (and yes, i am blog-addicted!!)

more later, and sorry for the stiff movable type layout, i will change it later on.

It’s my birthday soon…

next friday, the 30th, i will turn 28. I am wondering what to do to treat myself… here’s my list:

- a short trip to berlin
- a short trip at the sea
- the new harry potter book (special edition, will be out in june though..)
- a good massage
- eating sushi in bed
- a new haircut
- buying some clothes
- all of the above (which means working like hell the days after to find all the money spent…)

any other idea?

Skirt! magazine

As promised last friday, here’s the good news…

12 of my illustrations, mostly comics, where chosen by the editor of Skirt! Magazine to be published as a monthly feature for the 12 comming months. It is truly a dream comming true for me to see my artwork printed in a magazine, and i hope that my art can inspire and help people…

The first illustration to be displayed in Skirt! will be in the june issue (yeah yeah, this comming june!) and i will be looking forward for feedbacks from the readers –> you!

A little update

Dear fellow readers,

i would first like to appologize for not answering all your mails and comments yet… The week was terribly busy, which is good for me, but it felt really good to get mails from you all who just dropped to say hi and send me wishes…

I feel a bit better now, sometimes it changes every hour, but i know that its normal and i dont try to rush myself thru it. I dont try to hide my fear when its there, but i dont let them take control over me neither, only that is a big learning experience for me, and you could not believe how often i congratulate myself for being able to get up every morning and go on “even if…” That is about it for now.

oh, and there will be some good news to be annouced next monday, so stay tuned

Rough time

I really hesitate to put this entry online, but it feels good just to write it down, so i will give it a try.

“You do not need to know precisely what is happening, or exactly where it is all going. What you need is to recognize the possibilities and challenges offered by the present moment, and to embrace them with courage, faith, and hope”
Thomas Merton

As i write this, i am totally confused-sad-afraid and lost… I have been avoiding many things since a long time, because i was afraid. Fear kept me from moving, even if i was often in pain. And now, life is kind of pushing me to do what i have been trying to avoid since a long time – taking a break of my actual relationship – because it means lots of changes for me. And yes, like everyone, i am deadly afraid of change.

These will be big changes for me, and a big part of me is scared to death, while a tinny little part is exited about the idea of the new that will come into my life (but this part is so tinny compared to the part that is afraid…). But as you might know, love story can be really painful… so the part of me which could be exited with this wind of changes is dying under my fear and sadness.

This is real life, with all the joy and happy moments, and all the things we would like to avoid but just cant. It is hard to let myself being sad and under panic, when a part of me think that it is not ok… I have to fight hard to keep telling myself that it is ok to be sad and to stop trying to avoid my fear and sadness…

So right now i am thinking of what i will do next. So many questions inside my head, and i just cant see clearly… I will leave for a month or 2, but to go where, i don’t know. There could be many possibilities, but i don’t feel strong enough for any of them. Either going back to montreal for some time, living at friends places, or going on traveling around… i don’t know… any idea will be more than welcome… I hope the next days are gonna be easier.

camera test, part 2

i think i’m gonna be really annoying with that… but here’s another quick shoot, this time, its a close up of my aloes plant…

Testing my new camera…

After a weekend spent reading online reviews and comparing prices, i finally got a new digital camera. First test was made on lilo, at 3pm this afternoon… (i already wrote about my wish to exchange my life with lilo’s lazy life everynow and then… i envy him so much of having it so easy to relax…)

Blogging-Genius Strategies for Instant Web Content

By Biz Stone

I found this book quite interesting and as an avid blogger, I thought I knew everything about weblogs, but I still had a lot to learn about the blogging revolution.

When i first saw that half of the book was for beginners, i thought that this book might not be the best buy for me, but finally I got caught into it and learned a lot – from the starting chapters for beginners until the more advanced options of the last chapters.

The book gives a really good overview for starters (the invention of the www, blogging history, getting to know blogging providers, simple html guide for bloggers) and slowly get into more advanced topics such as generating income from your blog, design and typography advices, archiving options, group and corporate blogging, knowledge management, adding dynamic features, tips to increase traffic, syndicating your blog (something which I never really cared for until now, but which I found really interesting), and interviews with some well known people from the blogosphere. All this content is supported with 12 pages of useful web links all listed in the appendix. Everything is written in a casual and easy to understand approach (not the too often so-serious way, with techy terms that only top nerds can understand).

So far, I found this book to be a really good buy for beginners and intermediate
blog users.

And now, you might wonder why someone like me is so interested in blogs. This was also a mystery to me at the start, but I quickly understood that what fascinated me with the blog phenomena is the power of self expression for everyone – like you and me – which is brought to us with an amazing potential for expansion. I think writing is a powerful way of learning about yourself, and I truly believe that as long as people will write and express themselves freely, everything might just get better for them. As well as reading from other people’s points of view and confidences, we might finally realize that we are all the same, and at the same time all so different, like snowflakes. Blogs are more than simple publishing, they are alive. They take the character of the person who publish it and that makes the web not only the biggest knowledge base we had yet, but it gives it a soul.

I think weblogs expands everyone’s horizon and we are led to a phenomenal open mindedness, which is really needed these days. Who knows, blogging might be the next religion? (or the next addiction in my case

Some websites of interest:
* Blogging: Genius Strategies for Instant Web Content
* Companion website of this book
* Biz Stone, Personal weblog of the author
* Give Quick Use your affiliate program to send money to non profit organization, what a great idea…

Some books of interest (and probably my next readings):
* Small Pieces Loosely Joined: A Unified Theory of the Web
* The Weblog Handbook: Practical Advice on Creating and Maintaining Your Blog
* Linked: The New Science of Networks