There’s a comic i’ve done in the days following my return from holidays. I’ve been thinking a lot about my life, my ambitions, and the last 12 months. I’ve realized that even back from holidays, i wasn’t feeling ready to start to build all the projects i had in mind. All the courage i once had was now a mere memory, nothing else.
I’ve been thinking about where my courage could have been gone, how could i take back my power and go thru life with my head up. I went to the conclusion that over the last year, I’ve lost my power in many things that i thought would give me power and help solve my problems: books, therapy, and other helpers such as tarot cards, pendulum etc. I always have been a really curious person, and i still am, but i realize now that in all these things I’ve putted to much hopes, and all my self confidence.
So now, i will still read, but less. I will continue therapy, but less. And for the tarot and my pendulum, they will also be of used, but less than before. I have to find balance in between my so called “spirituality” and my free will. Lots of things might help me on my way, but it is by myself that i will find my way. This means, finding back my own power (and my fears!) and use them to build my life.
This quote found her way to me this week, coincidence? 😉
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I was always looking outside myself for strength and confidence but it comes
from within. It is there all the time.
Anna Freud