Not easy as it seems.

Turning around, placing things, replacing them, checking email, then again, changing desktop pattern, 5 minutes later basically doing the same.
The fuck is wrong with me?

Words keep running in my head…
“People do not like to commit.. this way, they can always be available if something (someone) better shows up…”

Is that what most relationships are about these days? i guess so.. seems so… I am so afraid of committing myself, feeling trapped.. but not being able to commit also brings a lot of issues i dont really wanna have to deal with..

Relationships, being human, sharing life with someone, all this is not as easy as it seems.