So yeah, i’m back. Not only back in hamburg, but back to my “normal” life (most people would’nt find it so normal but i do).
Normal life means, responsibilities, money worries, life worries, well, all kind of worries you dont really have while on holidays (that’s why holidays are so great!).
I spent wonderful time in montreal, with my friends and family. I thought 17 days would be too long, but in fact it wasn’t! The weather was really nice, sunny and warm, people were nice, and so was the city. I spent lots of time laying at the sun, ate lots of sushi with mel, and got lots of nice talk about life and other stuff with old friends.
I also had this party with schoolmates that i haven’t seen since 10 years, and god, i felt older. In the last year i realized, for the really first time in my life, that i am getting older. Often flashback images came to me, images of event of my life who took place 5, 10, or even 15 years ago. When these images came, it made me realize the time that had gone. It was something like remembering a exibition i made at college and then i thought “wow, this is like yesterday, but hm, its 10 years ago!” and so on.
I remember one night of February when i was falling asleep remembering all the bedrooms i got since i’m born. The first one i got in my yellow baby room, the second one i got until i turned 16 (green with really nice shades who let the sun shine so brightly), then my teenager bedroom with posters all around, and at the same time, the bedroom i got at my dad’s place when my parents got divorced…
After that, i left my hometown to move to montreal, got my first “own” flat with a roommate (which was an awesome illustrator who i thought about a lot in the last months!), then i moved to another flat where i got a huge bedroom, which became my first “atelier”. I had the room splitted in 2 parts, one for the bed and the other to paint. It was really nice when i think about it now…
Then, after those years, i moved with my boyfriend, and the year after we moved together in another flat (we are now at 8 if you are still counting the bedrooms!).
Finally, i moved to germany, and i got 2 different flats here, which gives now 10 bedrooms. Urg, yeah, i am getting older too, and i know i’m wrong, but i put pressure on my life as i see the time pass. Time goes so fast, and human beings are so slow to learn… I know that what i have to learn from this lifetime is patience, this is clear to me. I have at home (i call “home” the place where i’m born, the place where my mom is living) a small statue which says “slowly but surely”, given when i was 7 by the mom of a friend. I guess she knew already a lot about me at that time… 😉
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So yeah, the time spent in montreal was nice, and i did lots of wishes for my 27th birthday. Again, the sky will have a lot to do for me this year!
For now i must rest and put all the plans i made during the holidays aside, because i am sick since im back. I must spend days in bed, which is kind of really hard for me… I hope i get back on my feet soon, then i can see what to do next…