Even if i am putting lots of energy to get things moving, nothing is doing so. I am even at the point where i start to look for a flat even if i havent found work yet. Sitting still is not possible, i have to move forward.
Comon life! wake up, something must happen now!
I am up and ready for whats next, why is there nothing really going on? No movement, everything stays still.
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I try to see my “not so old” life, the one i had only 3 months ago, as a book which i am slowly closing. To think about past events just makes it harder for me. My moving to germany, falling in love with the country and florian, life there, my friends there, all this must not cross my mind for now. Maybe later. Of course later, it will come back. I hope i will go back there too one day.
Strange how life is. I wish i could be born with a “how to” manual explaining me the rules.