Getting into it, getting it done

i am walking by Indigo book store once a week.
since last september, i have been there once every week.
since last september, i have been there about 41 times.
every time, i keep checking out if it’s there.
if someone made it.
the book idea i have in mind.

and everytime, i thank god, no one has already got the
same idea as i. it is not there (yet).

when will i, (god damn hell) (f****) get to do it???
please someone kick my ass,

it’s about time.