After spending lots of afternoons (and money!) in coffees, i have discovered 2 things today to add some magic in my not so easy life:
* taking my cd player with me when i go out and having it playing LOUD in my hears! I have listened to the new radiohead album twice today, on the streets, in the subway, while watching people, and it was like magic! I rediscovered this pleasure which i had totally forgot about…
* preparing suprises for myself… for exemple, having something nice for me to see first thing in the morning, or having my coffee ready, just having to press the start button…
otherwise, my days are still the same… the high level of stress is there, the flashbacks and images of hamburg and everything else are still coming back to me constantly… i still wish in some moments that i could fly back and be there tomorrow.