The last days have been so hard, i dont know how to deal with all this. I miss everything of my old life, and cant stop thinking about it.
Things i miss:
doing a part of my bio shopping at budnikowski
bying yummie organic food at the bioland grocery
riding my bike to my favorite spots in hamburg: the city
center, the park, ottensen altona
going out for a coffee at my favorite places: geyer, sallzwei,
balzac coffee, la tazza d oro,
my flat, the space, the quieteness, the light in it,
my bed,
the bathroom and the bath,
my large windows,
my working place,
my scanner, burner and printer,
all my magazines,
my german friends,
the threes view from my window,
most of all, florian and the cats…
i dont know how to explain, neither to you or to myself, but all this is trully a painful moment and i dont understand why i have to live all this. To leave my flat, my boyfriend and cats, the city, the country, etc. Its hard to keep trust and to keep on fighting when you are so hurt inside. Sorry about complaining again, but that is the raw truth about my life right now…