The right amount of time

Well, nothing really special, thats why i kept quiet in the last days. I am really busy right now with a 4 days/week freelance contract, trying to update my portfolio, and trying to build up the new unitedsituation website.

Why am i always running against time? Even when i stopped to work, i didnt had enough time. When i had enough time, then i was not really using this time. Looks like i have a problem here…

That’s why i included the brian eno quote in this month’s newsletter (Quote was a definition of well-being by brian eno, “having just the right amount of time”)
I think having too much free time is somehow not helping me.
Knowing that i will not have all the time i would like to have keeps me pushing myself to realize my goals and kick my ass because its the only time i have to do so. I call this self pressure.

On the other side, having too less time is for me really stressy. I get totally anxious and stressed out just at the idea that the next 2 days are fully “booked”. I need an empty agenda, with more free time than busy time. Thanks god, i think i have some kind of balance right now, but i always feel on the edge of not having enough.

So, with all that in mind, i tried to spend a “as relax as possible” weekend. Well, i didnt really had the choice since i was totally brain dead from the last 2 weeks of work and keeping up personal projects.

Still, after 2 weeks of rain, we got a super sunny weekend, and i had to go out for a ride thru hamburg. I took some pictures, some sun, and some time to enjoy life, something i think we often forget to do…

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Talking about time, july 28th is the date where i headed up to germany 3 years ago… and yes, that’s the day i met my german boyfriend! Memories… 🙂