Cocooning

It has been a while, again, since i wrote an entry.

I have just left behind another part of my life, and moved to my new home. I am finally settling down for a while and getting comfortable. Today is officially my first ‘cocooning’ day.. Getting up late, checking emails, going back to bed, getting up again, having milk coffee and croissant for breakfast, reading the newspaper… all this in pajama..

My cats are finally coming over this week, i cant wait to have them with me again. Since 4 months now that i left germany, i hope they will travel safe and that they will be happy here…

Otherwise, i am thinking about creating a new weblog using typepad… I still have so many projects in mind which i had to put on hold in the last months, i really wonder how i am gonna go back to all this…

Enough for now. I declare this day to be a ‘worry-free’ day. Im going back to bed with some tea and a good book. Wish you the same…

More about fear

thanks to andrea who pointed me to this journal entry, about fear,

* pessimists beware

Choices out of fear

“A dear friend spoke yesterday of approaching life from two different places – LOVE and FEAR. This idea has stayed with me ever since she shared it and I find it so fascinating and so real. It made me look back at different situations in my past and how the way I dealt with them could have been better had I released fear and embraced love. Of course now I have to try even harder to live by that, even though it feels a little scary. In many ways, holding on to the fear can be easier. It allows us to stay within certain comfort zones, and even comfort zones that aren’t too productive or beneifical sometimes feel safer, because it may be what we are used to.”
from Swirly’s journal

So many times in the last weeks, when i had to make choices, a small voice inside me asked ‘m-c, are you making this choice out of fear?’

I had to find a job and a flat in less than 3 months, and so many voices, inside and friends voices, where still repeating me ‘its not possible! there’s no jobs available, everyone is poor and out of work! and even more impossible will it be to find a flat, there’s NOTHING available in montreal!’

I did made the choice not to act out of fear, and to trust that EVERYTHING is possible…

This had lead me to ask myself the same question when i had to make decisions… Am i acting out of fear, and if yes, can i choose not to do so and trust that life will bring me even better than what i am expecting?

Moving again

This week i will be moving again, for the third time in 4 months. No need to tell you that i am really exhausted of packing and unpacking the same stuff in the same boxes.. but this time, it should be for good, or at least for some time.

I have dreamt of this new home for the past 3 months, and i think i will be really happy there. It will be time for me to settle down for real, not temporary anymore, and to get back on my projets. Everything is slowly falling in place, but i am still really confused about what happened and what is happening right now. Just be in the moment is still enough for me to do!

Otherwise, i have received this week my copy of the 2004 Artist’s & Graphic Designer’s Market, with compliment from the editor, and i hope to have some time to get into it in the next 2 weeks.

I also have bought, for half of the price, Louise L.Hay Wisdom Cards with some more stuff from her. I still really enjoy my old set of Power thought cards bought some time ago but to have new ones is even nicer My roomates totally liked them and i guess i will have to buy them some next week.

Traveling pets

I am about to have my 2 cats shipped to me from germany…

Does anyone knows about pets air travel?

Which airlines are best ones, which ones are to avoid, tips & tricks, etc. Email me any info or leave a comment, that will be greatly appreciated!

Do you know what it is to be like me

For a moment,
everything gets clear.

I want to do everything,
I want to be everywhere.

Is it everything that gets extraordinary?
no, it is just my mind opening, expanding.
This shall pass, too.

The dreams,
the hopes,
my fears,
all at the same time.

Arts open the channels,
you suddenly see,
hear,
understand a great deal of things.
It all gets clearer in my heart,
there’s so much to do.

Does he even care about me?

Where do i belong?
why do i always want to be somewhere else?
what’s wrong with me?
There’s so much to do.

Do you know what it is to be like me.

Fall

Fall is here and i cannot deny it anymore. Its cold and gray, leafes are falling, summer is already over.

As i am typing this, we are already october 6th. I realise that i havnt seen that much of last summer, so busy i was with trying to get back on my feet. Time, these things take time…

I am now back here since 3 months. 3 months i wouldnt like to have to live again. The leaving of hamburg, my home, my cats, friends, etc etc. has let me under a great deal of pain and stress which i never thought i would have to face. I knew it would probably be hard, but not as much as it has been. Anyway, wathever has happened to me, one thing i am sure of is that i needed it to grow (and still do) and i also know that each of us, we all go trought these times, we cannot escape it. It feels like having to clean up your whole life whenever you want it or not.

I will be moving in my new home next week, and i am really looking forward to it.

I am also really looking forward working on my projects again… The fall newsletter should be coming soon, and many other things. I just need to settle down first, have my cats back (hopefully until the end of october they will be here), and take it easy for a while…

Cheri Huber

‘As we let go, the energy that has been tied up in the various places of resistance is released. Whoosh! Life opens up, surges through, moves, expands, and suddenly we see possibilities that weren’t available before.’

Cheri Huber