3 times this week, no, 4 times i log-in to type something.
\n3 times, no, 4 times i ended login-out in less than 30 seconds.<\/p>\n
I hope this time i can do it.
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\n“Creative exploration will always result in mistakes, and if we fear those, we risk paralysis and a numb…”<\/p>\n
Thats the best way i found to explain what is happening to me. <\/p>\n
Fear of making mistakes. <\/p>\n
So many things i would like to do, but i am so afraid to be dissapointed, to not do it right, to feel insecure, stressed out, so i just sit there, think about it, and
\ndo nothing.<\/p>\n
This resume the last 2 weeks… Quite painful and stressful. I wish i could be different, be willing to try many things, accept things that dont work out well, ERASE THE WORD MISTAKE from my dictionnary!<\/p>\n
Mistakes are nothing else than exploration. Exploration result in wider knowledge (of the world and of ourself),<\/p>\n
So, why bother with mistakes??<\/p>\n
Are we (women especially) trapped in some forms of high standards that in fact are just keeping us away from our goals and true desires?<\/p>\n
There are so many things that i would like to do, that i cant find myself deciding what i want to do with my life (go back to school, learn holistic medecine, learn yoga, teach yoga, be an illustrator, be a painter, design products, write books, …), but i am so afraid of not being good enough at all of these things that i dont dare to try them out. <\/p>\n
The last weeks were about that. About trying to spend relaxing time, but i must say it, i thought i was driving nuts, until i realised what was driving me nuts.
\nIt was’nt the fact that i did’nt had enough time, ideas, or energy, but it was more that i could’nt choose where to start, being too afraid of doing things wrong.<\/p>\n
So now that i see a bit clearer in this fog wich is my life right now, where do i start? <\/p>\n
write about it in my blog. (Save entry)<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"
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