{"id":2739,"date":"2008-02-26T22:37:46","date_gmt":"2008-02-27T02:37:46","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/mcturgeon.com\/blog\/2008\/02\/26\/can-you-let-yourself-think-big\/"},"modified":"2023-09-07T04:56:08","modified_gmt":"2023-09-07T09:56:08","slug":"can-you-let-yourself-think-big","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/mcturgeon.com\/blog\/2008\/02\/26\/can-you-let-yourself-think-big\/","title":{"rendered":"Dreaming big"},"content":{"rendered":"

\"Think<\/a><\/p>\n

Most people can’t. So many of my loved friends and family members dont allow themselves to dream, and now, seems like it narrows down to me, me the one who always said i made my way dreaming.<\/p>\n

These days feel like i am trying to exorcise the worse of me – believe me, it ain’t fun! I thought i was fairly “aware” of my so called negative thoughts, the lazy disturbing ones napping in the conscious and subconscious mind, but it looks like i am just walking over issues i have faced years ago, this time just from a higher view, a different perspective – but nothing that makes it easier than the previous time.<\/p>\n

Three weeks of ups and downs, head high in the sky, and a little later deep down the drain. Dreaming of the most beautiful future, then hitting my nose on a wall of fears, this same wall i thought i went over the day i called myself an adult. <\/p>\n

Ups and downs, Dreams and Fears.<\/p>\n

As i wrote some weeks ago, i am now working on a life mission, the one in which my task is to bring to life a work of art which i am dreaming of since years. A piece which is 100% me – no one to tell me how or when to do it – and what i apprehended as being a living dream became something i’d rather not call a nightmare, but still, it gives me chills.<\/p>\n

Working on such a project, where you as an artist are fully involved, requires more than just discipline and talent – it requires a great deal of courage to face your demons, all these negative thoughts and critical voices inside your head, and an almost beyond this world<\/i> capacity to auto-motivate yourself e-ve-ry-day of e-ve-ry-week, this until completion of the project. All this because as it turned out, suddenly you are the client, and the work must be up to your standards, and you must deliver. <\/p>\n

Now the question is, how to kick out these demons and motivate myself to be up to the page everyday so that i could complete the project i most dream of doing? The problem i guess is that most of us can’t dream big, which would mean to kick out deliberately the demons, to use the power i have to motivate myself by filling my head with joyful and colorful possible scenarios, this instead of thinking that i can’t do it, that the work is no good, that no one’s gonna get it, and that no one loves me anyway<\/i>!<\/p>\n

This brings me to raise some questions about our capacity to dream big. Can you see yourself going through a dream project with ease, even with fun? Can you see yourself holding your work, this along with an enormous amount of money because people actually buy your work? Can you see yourself winning prizes from this work, having Bono calling you to say ‘hey really nice work, i wanted to thank you personally…<\/i>‘ ? I know these are a little extreme, but can you just dream half this big?<\/p>\n

As it is, most of people can’t. And this is dreadfully sad – as my beloved boyfriend would say, we wouldn’t be flying to the moon if no one would have dreamt of it.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

Most people can’t. So many of my loved friends and family members dont allow themselves to dream, and now, seems like it narrows down to me, me the one who always said i made my way dreaming. These days feel like i am trying to exorcise the worse of me – believe me, it ain’t… Continue reading Dreaming big<\/span><\/a><\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":2,"featured_media":0,"comment_status":"closed","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"footnotes":""},"categories":[52,4],"tags":[],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/mcturgeon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2739"}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/mcturgeon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/mcturgeon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mcturgeon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/2"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mcturgeon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=2739"}],"version-history":[{"count":1,"href":"https:\/\/mcturgeon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2739\/revisions"}],"predecessor-version":[{"id":8274,"href":"https:\/\/mcturgeon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/2739\/revisions\/8274"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/mcturgeon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=2739"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mcturgeon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=2739"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/mcturgeon.com\/blog\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=2739"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}